For What It is Worth

ponders
1:00 AM, Sunday, January 13, 2008

though today i didnt go out or anything.
but spent my 17 going on 18 life sitting at home.

i was practically alone for the most time during the day. with my sis at her bbq dn mum and dad at the hospital and my lil brother going to school.

nevertheless today basically i wan to blog abt something different.
u knw when in ur hear something is bothering. but u just dunno what is it or whatsoever.
today i had that feeling the whole day. but i felt alone. weirdly.
thoughts abt losing ppl. its not common to ppl who knw me that i usually lose my love ones fast. like some kind of plague. but i dun want it to happen again.

the bottom of this entry will sound totally emo. so not azri.

basically. i treasure those around me often. though with the constant jokes gossips criticism or even criticism from my mouth.
i meant nothing about it.
*winks to yana*[just felt like typing that]
basically being alone today it wasnt a good feeling. im actually very afraid to lose those around me now. in the likes of new found bonds. or ties that had already been bind.
i dun wish to have that feeling2 i am legend will smith alone on earth kind of guy.
i love being love and giving love.
u knw the feeling where u knw that u have someone there. not in particularly anybody.
like closing ur eyes, seeing all your friends.those who have been true and all.
those that treat you for who you are already am, and not by what u wear, what u do. but u as an individual.
those u knw u can count on when u need help. regardless.

i just want to say i feel bless that i have those around me that treat me like they are already am.
thank you. and i feel bless to know that i have all of u.

"what if the earth goes round. if u have no one to take u on that cycle."